July 3, 2019

I talk to my brother more now. Last night he didn’t have a lot to say. Sometimes he does, sometimes he doesn’t. I was the one running the conversation. You’d think the torture computer would stumble without inspiration to guide it but I doesn’t. My conversation in such a case becomes about random topics. It […]

Amber Waves

Jakob Dylan was no longer an issue but the company and David were in late 2011. The event from my past which was to be referenced in this attack was my forced masturbation, specifically the first time I was forced to penetrate myself. I was ten years old and I’d been forced to masturbate for […]

I Prayed

I wasn’t raised with religion. I’d gone to Sunday school once or twice with my friend’s family. But my family didn’t have anything to do with God except for using his name in curses. So in 1996 when they anxiety torture picked up in earnest and I begin to pray I found myself curious as […]

Clap On, Clap Off

For all of my torture and as long as I can remember (which are the same length of time) I’ve seen street lights go out around me every now and again. They don’t flicker. They don’t turn on. They sometimes go out when I’m passing them by. Ask my mother and she will say as […]

Las Vegas, 2008

I was excited to go to Las Vegas with my twin sister and my mother for my twenty-first birthday. That excitement died quickly when I got there. It was too busy. I’m not supposed to like places that are busy. Too many people, too many flashing lights and my torture goes crazy. I think the […]

The Probability Is High

Though the torture group likes to terrorize me about what the future will bring there’s nothing more potentially dangerous to me then my time after they are done torturing me. There’s a few reason why this will be risky. The first being that after nearly three decades of being physically controlled by the torture technology […]

I know What I Know

The torture group has withheld information from me consistently. Though they refuse to identify themselves and the men and women torturing me by name they can’t help but reveal themselves as people with personalities. They control me and then have me select favorites, display likes and opinions even complex thoughts on things like politics. This […]

The Party

I’m not usually social unless it’s a family gathering. But living with my parents means I can’t avoid their party guests. I suffer through it. It’s arduous because the torture computer controlling my body can’t run without me being internally tortured too. My facade seems normal if a little nervous and tense. My inside world […]

The Torture Technologies Revisited

The four torture technologies: audio, sensation, visuals and physical control of a body, are all undetectable to the naked eye. The victims experiences them by hearing, feeling, seeing and being made to do what the torture group deigns they will. Because these technologies are so unique the non-victims of the world are unable to identify […]

The Truth As I Already Knew It

The torture group believes I have to be reminded that they control my body. They think the first twenty-one years of psychological manipulation went so well that I no longer understand what I’m going through. See, they used the thought voice narrator to tell me every action I took every moment of every day was […]

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