September 1st, 2019

Coming home from an torture tinged vacation was rough. The week started out with me being mildly ill and the torture group noticing and responding with enhancements to my misery. They added in pain in my ears and head and much of my body on and off. I was only abnormally gassy. I slept a […]

Others Like Me

2012 In researching the technology on the internet I can find many different websites about the technology that’s being used on me. When I first looked online I was turned off by the seeming unintelligible writing of the authors of those websites; later I will come to understand how they can believe in things like […]

August 25th, 2019

As we drove to the airport to leave for our vacation I was being dissuaded from flying by the nameless voices they play. But that didn’t stop the torture group from sending me on my way. It was a more pre-schizophrenia torture flight. Having tortured me twice on two plane trips the torture group was […]

The Danse Macabre

From the movie “The Cell” and the book “House Of Leaves’ the torture group created a dark fantasy story they told me with visuals lifted directly from the book and the movie. This story was about one version of me. A fantasy retelling of me in another life. I was a before my torture version […]

August 17th, 2019

Despite the sleep disturbance torture leading up to the flight to Hawaii I woke up early the day of and was the first one ready to go. However on the car ride there I was hearing voices including my thought voice say how I didn’t want to go to Hawaii. Because of no reason I […]


I must have spent a long time on the negative side of my anxiety torture. Because the first time I went to Hawaii as an adult in 2007 or thereabouts I was hit with a startling peacefulness. The sensations they flooded me with calm and soothing and quiet and relaxation. I got a full week […]

August 10th, 2019

This week I noticed an odd use of exhaustion sensation and corresponding behavior changes. When I first began experiencing the exhaustion problem from my torture in 2012 it led me to quit volleytennis, working and try to not go out socially as much. But in 2019 things were going so well with my volunteer work […]

Does The Sensation Technology Enhance The Victim’s Sense Of Their Body?

The Question Does the victim have a heightened awareness of their body when the torture group uses the sensation technology on them? My Evidence When I feel them do a sensation on an area of my body I get a stronger sense of that area. It is more mass than the area in the location […]

August 4th, 2019

I spent this week house sitting and dog sitting all at once. This went as well as my torture does now. By which I mean I was able to perform the task but I was internally tortured in ways no one could obviously detect. Though I see the dog often I’d never spent this much […]

Me And Del Were Singin’

I’ve shared most of the fantasy music videos the torture group used to show me. What I have left is a short list. Fantasy music videos which are harder for me to describe because I can’t remember every action that took place in them. Instead of the detailed descriptions like before here these are with […]

Create your website at
Get started