The Danse Macabre

From the movie “The Cell” and the book “House Of Leaves’ the torture group created a dark fantasy story they told me with visuals lifted directly from the book and the movie. This story was about one version of me. A fantasy retelling of me in another life. I was a before my torture version […]


I must have spent a long time on the negative side of my anxiety torture. Because the first time I went to Hawaii as an adult in 2007 or thereabouts I was hit with a startling peacefulness. The sensations they flooded me with calm and soothing and quiet and relaxation. I got a full week […]

Me And Del Were Singin’

I’ve shared most of the fantasy music videos the torture group used to show me. What I have left is a short list. Fantasy music videos which are harder for me to describe because I can’t remember every action that took place in them. Instead of the detailed descriptions like before here these are with […]

Do Victims Remember Sensations From The Past?

The Question Can a victim of torture which made them not understand what the torture was recognize the sensations that were used in their torture when they are done on them during openly revealed torture by the torture group? This question applies only to victim who now know about the torture but previously did not […]

A List Of My Personal Audio, Sensation And Visuals Torture Attacks

Head ۰A round shape of pressure like the brim of a hat around my head Hair ۰A full head feeling of heat when my hair got dirty ۰Irritation when my hair touches my skin ۰Irritation when single strands of hair are on my face Ears ۰The pain I felt during my earaches that I had […]

Suzanne Omega

I was hearing about old fantasies the torture group had created for me to watch as I listened to music with my MP3 player. They brought up the alternate video of the Suzanne Vega’s “Blood Makes Noise”. I don’t think I’ve shared it. In 2009 to 2011 the torture group was showing me a series […]

Amber Waves

Jakob Dylan was no longer an issue but the company and David were in late 2011. The event from my past which was to be referenced in this attack was my forced masturbation, specifically the first time I was forced to penetrate myself. I was ten years old and I’d been forced to masturbate for […]

I Prayed

I wasn’t raised with religion. I’d gone to Sunday school once or twice with my friend’s family. But my family didn’t have anything to do with God except for using his name in curses. So in 1996 when they anxiety torture picked up in earnest and I begin to pray I found myself curious as […]

Las Vegas, 2008

I was excited to go to Las Vegas with my twin sister and my mother for my twenty-first birthday. That excitement died quickly when I got there. It was too busy. I’m not supposed to like places that are busy. Too many people, too many flashing lights and my torture goes crazy. I think the […]

I know What I Know

The torture group has withheld information from me consistently. Though they refuse to identify themselves and the men and women torturing me by name they can’t help but reveal themselves as people with personalities. They control me and then have me select favorites, display likes and opinions even complex thoughts on things like politics. This […]

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