This week has featured near boundless energy in a three day sprint. Usually I got to bed earlier then anyone else and wake up before them all. By that I mean I got sleep from eight pm to five am. But this week I managed to stay awake for a few extra hours starting on Monday and ending Thursday. I still woke before anyone else. They’re all late sleepers.
The second night I was awake extra late I made a ton of food. The torturers wanted me to have something to do. They didn’t want me to eat it, it was for later, they wanted me active. My father commented, my behavior was so strange. My diet has been haywire. I’m not allowed to eat a salad twice a day every day anymore. The torture group decided I should gain back twenty pounds. Goal achieved. They do this for no reason I find rational. It’s minor torture and the usual at that. That I actually made it to 133 pounds even for a little bit was miraculous. I hadn’t gone below 150 in twenty years.
I spoke to my brother only once this week. The torture group does not want me maintaining social contact with anyone I don’t live with on a regular schedule. They reminded me I hadn’t spoken to him and how we were speaking every day. They just didn’t care to make me call him. We finally spoke and he is fine. He didn’t mention my not calling.
The volunteer work I do for my mother, my busy work, took a sudden swing into active after a few months of neglectful work. The torture group had been sending me to the office with a anxiety torture attack sendoff regularly. They have momentarily stopped that. Friday I made it to the office without my cigarettes with me and I survived. Miraculous.
The torture I receive is routine. There is no longer much excitement going on. It all went back to a new normal. These past seven years have all blurred into each other it’s been so similar. This past year I haven’t gotten my intense pain nor my intense positive sensations torture attack. They’d been doing the negative ones several times a year and the positive ones once every two years or so. I’d say I’m due and it isn’t going to be fun. What do you think, does the torture group require the torture technology for another victim’s torture and that’s why they aren’t able to use the intense levels on me? Or is the technology directed towards me breaking down and in need of repair or replacement? Say, how does the torture technology function if it were placed in satellites? You can’t repair that so easily. Ground tech it must be.