It’s Calm Underneath the Waves

Something that suggests to me that I’m not the torture group’s typical torture case is the theories the torture operators have about me. They know that controlling my body must affect me psychologically during the act. They differ as to what it does to me. These are their ideas they’ve told me about while they blather away in my ears.

One idea is that not being able to independently move has severed my ties to a anything I’m doing. They think I just am not engaged in the actions I’m performing. To bridge this gap they use the thought voice. One theory is that I can only pay attention to so much sensory input and the thought voice and other torture technologies became paramount above natural sensory input. They think the thought voice verbally guides me to psychologically attached to the actions my body is being forced to perform against my will.

One idea is that I’m not able to think at all. They believe I’m unable to remember things after they happen. They think I can only stay in the moment. That I’m always experiencing the constant torture activity and cannot break away to relax into my own psychological space.

David’s theory is that I can think straight, I can remember just fine but that I’m just unable to act on my thoughts and will obviously. He thinks the torture group is underestimating me. He thinks I sense both the torture and natural sensory input clearly from experience with them. He thinks that I remain active mentally and the torture group can’t prove that I’m not.

David’s other theory is that because the thought voice program speaks clearly, evenly and calmly I’m never alarmed or frightened by the negative torture which includes threats or terrorizing behavior towards me. He thinks its calm Underneath the waves (in the blue of my oblivion). To quote Fiona Apple.

Analysis: The torture group broadcasts audio and visuals to me every second I’m awake. This says they believe I can see and hear what they are sending to me. They clearly believe I can process that information only as they guide me through it with the thought voice. Her verbal explanations which are frequently false and always manipulative give me what the torture group wants me to think and believe. Nothing can be verified until the time when I’m released from my bonds. They have a plan to reach their goal and have spent almost three decades working towards it.


Published by ti30years

Living in So. California. Victim of the T.I. torture since 1990. Child and adult victim of the torture. I share my torture experience to help people learn about the torture which continues to plague me and others. Not your average schizophrenic.

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