A modified Education

In my experience homeschooling is a dumbed down version of classwork. It wasn’t just that I struggled because of my torture, it was that the torture group struggled to care about my education because they were too busy torturing me. They had stopped trying to get me to attain normalcy during their time controlling my body.

With the bar lowered they put up a fight routinely. It went in a cycle of highs and lows. The torture group’s torture follows a pattern. They would pretend that I was willing to do schoolwork or go into a general ed. classroom and let me actually go for a while. Then they would pull out the old anxiety. I lived in close proximity to my schools. I would just walk home. Of course they tried to stop me. They had no legal right to. I was sick.

The homeschooling was not enough of a break for the torture group. They got worse and less cooperative. This was what landed me in lockdown therapy schools in Utah. Twice. The torture group kept amping up my bad behavior until they hit the wall and then backing up. And starting over again. This was what damaged my relationships with my family.

I never got back to public school full time. I never got beyond my house. I’m still there today. Only now it’s because of the schizophrenia torture. See the torture group found that the anxiety was no longer working as an excuse. I needed a more grown-up illness to excuse me from life. That was why my schizophrenia torture began.

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