The Routine, the Rhythm, the Pattern

The downshift had already begun in the first six months of year two of the schizophrenia torture phase. For the second half the torture group would create the torture activity and actions as it still occurs today. It all begins to bleed together after this excepting some unusual occurrences. Aside from being the beginning of the year I threw up this was when the insanity showed how organized it could get.

The voices had changed in presentation to me. In the first year of schizophrenia they had started off by talking with me. Though my responses were all created by the torture group through their control of my body I was as engaged in the year as I ever could be. For their next trick they wanted me to sit back, listen and suffer. The conversations I was overhearing talked at me not with me. They were one sided. Like a person talking to their cat. The topic was the torture of course. What torture was happening at the moment. What torture they had done in the past. They’ve been talking about themselves for six and a half years straight.

I’m being forced to experience what the torture group considers torture. I’m pretty certain they think this is brain washing. Only the topic is only the torture. So they want me to think about how I’m being tortured for all of my waking hours. Except that small portion of time when the voices aren’t on topic. I’m being made into a torture victim, though I already was. It’s perplexing.

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