After the torture group gave a vague but somehow honest revelation of what they had been doing in my life for twenty-one years they wanted to rehash my life history. They wanted to reveal everything they’d done and how it was done through the torture technologies. This was partially a way for them to make certain I comprehended what I was as a torture victim. It was also to clear up all the lies they had told me.
They have been bringing up everything they’ve ever done to me as they selectively choose from their records of my torture and telling me the story from the new perspective. They haven’t mentioned my life pre-schizophrenia as anything but torture ever since. The computer reprograms severely.
The question remains, why give up? Why spend six years doing one thing, fifteen years doing another and then start over again? The torture group has given away everything that I was raised to be. I was taught that everything I experienced was real like everyone else, the complete opposite of fact. It doesn’t make sense. So much about the torture doesn’t make sense to outsiders.