The Monotony

The torture may be a series of different attacks but altogether it’s not that many intense attacks. The downtime I experience during torture isn’t like others victims because I am never not being physically controlled. Yet in between the attacks which piggyback each other the torture group still takes downtime. I get a percentage of low to very low intensity level attacks each day. The torture group is laughably bad at sustaining the intense torture for an entire day.

They can do medium level intensity the most efficiently. The highest highs are rare. When they want to hurt me they go to the midline between medium and high. All they have to do is go above my daily highest sensations to make me feel off or in pain.

I can’t explain how one gets used to so much extra sensory stimuli. I just know that it bothers me more that the torture activity changes at all rather than what it changes to. I can’t tune all the torture activity out but I have learned to tolerate it.

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