In and Out and Off and On

My schizophrenia torture after the first year went backwards in some ways. They had taken me far away from the ignorance about the torture I was experiencing by re-educating me on what it is they do to me. They still wanted me to be tricked and seem vulnerable to their attacks. They deleted some information I had learned from my thought voice and I went into a more naive confused perspective on my torture.

I had learned the vague truth about my torture by December, 2011. What I had been taught was that my life was normal. Everyone heard a thought voice they said. Everyone feels this kind of pain. The time of September-December 9th, 2011 was spent replaying torture from the twenty-one years prior and explaining how it was done by torture technology.

On the day of June 9th, 2012 when David and company stopped interacting with me I lost from the thought voice some of the new and vaguely correct information I had learned. They ran attacks which were reversions of the educational attacks they had just gone through. They didn’t take me back entirely. They took away some of the thought voices memory files on the year I had gone through.

They brought back torture attacks from pre-schizophrenia. The arthritis and the jaw pain returned. They had vanished for an entire year. They started doing new crush attacks in the same way they had before. Sometimes I was aware i was being tortured while sometimes I forgot. It’s odd. They don’t want me to think one way about my torture now. They want me to be confused.

This jumping in and out of the premise story of my torture never happened before. I was also never told so much of the truth before this torture phase. I surmise that the torturers believe I’m mentally vulnerable to anything and everything they force me to live through. It’s more that I’m along for the ride no matter what.

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