As a torture victim who has her body controlled I’m subject to torture instead of care. The torture group likes to create hygiene issues for me both the kind that other people notice and the kind that only I know about.
It started when I was younger than ten. They weren’t letting me put lotion on. Not the worst. But bothersome. As I got older and it was time to shave they would nick me every time. To get around that they had me not shave. After the schizophrenia torture started they decided I should go back to the dry skin condition. Well it took them a few years but I’m there consistently now. The torture group may have me care for my skin and do little things like manicure my nails only once in a while. I’m not seen to be a girly girl so I let my nails get good and gross when all it would need is some lotion.
For my schizophrenia torture I’ve had much of the same as I did prior. There was the time when I bathed every other day until reports of me smelling changed the torturer’s minds. It gets do bad I don’t even want to say. But here goes. Chafing, redness, swelling. I get one area so bad that when I finally treat it the skin is raw and it stings when I put something on. This could be solved with regular care but that’s not allowed for me.
They do this interesting attack which has been big during my schizophrenia but was a problem before as well. They make me pee myself. When I cough during those attacks they have made me let loose. It’s not the worst but it isn’t fun. I am frequently forced to pee just a little bit. But I will be allowed to change my clothes if they do it too much.
I don’t do anything but brush my hair. I’m only recently allowed to wear perfume consistently. I don’t get to brush my teeth more than once a day anymore. I’m bad at flossing. Luckily my teeth are very healthy or there would be some serious problems. Because of the smoking I know I smell gross. But my mother no longer complains to my face as she used to so I’m not certain how much like an ashtray I smell.
These little things wouldn’t make much difference to me if it weren’t for their control over me forcing me to live this way. I was raised and taught to take care of myself and follow stricter hygiene standards. The torture group followed those when I was young sometimes but gave up on those they choose to when I became and adult. If not for the negative repercussions I get from this mistreatment I would not complain