The torture group made me become overweight at the beginning of my anxiety torture phase. I remember being 4’11” and 150 Lbs. vividly. I’m 5’5″ and 140 Lbs now to give perspective. The torture group wanted me to look fat for my anxiety torture. They were incredibly abusive on the subject of my physical appearance. At age ten they started abusing me about being fat. They were causing it. They had control of my body. That’s just twisted.
I went for fifteen years trying to lose the weight. I took laxatives I stole from the store. I went through a period of bingeing and purging. I starved myself. I tried fad diets. The torture group didn’t actually want me to lose the weight they just wanted me to go through the motions of trying. It was too important to them that I be distinctly fat in appearance. It actually had nothing to do with how abusive they were on the subject.
In 2015 I started my best diet and exercise routine ever. I lost fifty pounds. It took two years. It was a long term torture game to make me experience the struggle to lose weight. I am no longer as committed to my diet but I’m still not gaining like I used to before. I’ve kept it off and eat much healthier today.
The torture group didn’t need me to be overweight to find cause to abuse me about my appearance. They do it after my big weight loss the same as they did before. Now I’m not good enough and still fat. They just want to be cruel.