The torture group would have me believe that torture aside they’re doing something marvelous while my torture is occurring. They tell me that they’re feeding me information, like secrets about the torture group and the torture. They tell me they want me to fight against the torture once I’m free to. They have this positive fantasy of what I am beneath their physical control of my body. They want me to dream along with them. They need me to believe I’m special not because of being a victim of torture or a rare torture but because what knowledge my torturers have deemed important to share with me. At least this fantasy is a healthier vision of the future than others they have.
That I would be some kind of sleeper agent is cliche. The torture group loves to make victims think they’re special. The torture is not special it’s unusual and never been done this way but torture is common. The torture group wants the victims confused about all aspects of the torture. Plus they just enjoy the game of psychological manipulation and lying.
The torture group theorizes I can’t think beyond the thought voices statements. They think I’m trapped in the moment. Which makes the decades of torture training me how to be the torture group’s version of me not worth the effort. How am I supposed to be this version of me post torture if my memory is so dangerously inactive now? It doesn’t make sense.
The voices I hear and the thought voice are universally banned from saying anything important relevant to the torture and the torture group. When was I supposed to be getting this secret and hidden information during my torture? Am I supposed to believe I’m being spoken to in code or something sly?