The Crush

One method of the torture group’s control over my body and everything I do is how they sometimes match the torture I’m getting which no one else can see to the actions I complete. Some of my torture is meant to be exhibited while much of it is not. One torture attack which is more internal is the crush attacks.

A crush attack is when the torture group picks a male character to feature in their sexual torture attacks. It may start by seeing a movie and an actor catches my eye. Then I go online and research as much about him as I can find. The more information I find the more the torture group has to use in the coming attacks. The torture group will be using the information I gathered in the torture featuring the always make character.

The sexual torture combined with the crush attack involved the same type of impersonations used in the Jakob Dylan and David stories. I would be “imagining” my crush and I in fantasy scenarios. I would masturbate to these fantasies. Crush attacks typically lasted four months. Because slowly the fantasy would sour and the crush became more of a negative experience.

The torture group has always changed the characters they use in sexual torture attacks. The crush attack is a way they can build a character easily by filtering information into the computer system for it to use. The torture group seems to need constant stimulation for the torture computer at a controlled rate.

My earliest crush was before age ten. It wasn’t like these others because the torture hadn’t decided to sexually torture me so intently yet. They were sexually torturing me then. It was what they considered mild sexual torture. As if they considered my youth in their decision making.

With my first crush I learned how my torturers would have me go all out in my flirting and devotion to get the attention of my crush. I’ve only had a few crushes which were on people in the real world, not celebrates. The only problem was despite my behavior the torture group had no desire to yet see me get into a relationship.


Published by ti30years

Living in So. California. Victim of the T.I. torture since 1990. Child and adult victim of the torture. I share my torture experience to help people learn about the torture which continues to plague me and others. Not your average schizophrenic.

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