Therein Lies the Dynamo

For the first year of my schizophrenia the torture group clearly used their twenty-one years worth of prior surveillance of my life and the torture they had done to manipulate me. I acted out my reactions to their strategic torture attacks in ways that lead others around me to believe I was schizophrenic. Yet it was all a farce. The torture group controlled my body. Why I had to act out what I was internally experiencing, what I could not react to, was illogical. The torture group is trying to force me, to mold me into the person they have made me live as who is also a torture victim.

My torture which causes the complete control of my body by the torture group at all times for the entirety of my torture experience of twenty-eight years is built on a theory of action which is unusual, unproven to occur and created by the torture group. They think that my being forced to do and say things which the voice who tells me my thoughts acts as her choice and will trains me to think and behave as that person. With those opinions, tastes etc.

Yet the torture group has no ability to test this theory. They do not let me free ever from their control. Not even to test the results of their decades of work. Presumably they intend to set me free one day and observe me as I adjust to my former freedoms. At least they talk about doing it frequently in their new fantasy stories.

I don’t consider what is being done to me as brainwashing. It may qualify as such. I just consider it training. I’ve been trained from age four in how to be a different person. I’m a study in the development of a personality. I’ve never found another victim reporting exactly what I am though I’ve read of similar events. I may be the first or an early generation of my type of torture victim.

I find my torture to be similar to other victims in ways which tell me the torture group is using other victims reactions to the torture as a guide for how to make me act while they control me. This gives me indirect insight into how the victims are behaving. When my behavior during torture correlates to that of other victims it tells me the torture group is unsure and uncertain of how to control a body with full independence.

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